Richmond, Feb. 24th 1807
The business which you did me the honor to confide to my managemement relative to Mazzeis claim to a lot in this town has from a combination of unfortunate events, (of which the principal has been my feeble and debilitated state, the result of complicated disease) not progressed with the rapidity I could have wished. The issue of the suit is however rendered certain by my obtaining from Foster Webb a deed conveying the tenement to Mazzei, and also a power of attorney to myself to collect any rent remaining due. These instruments have been proven in the Henrico court by two witnesses, and I sanguinely hope to obtain the testimony of the third witness in March which form a complete record. An action of ejectment will be commenced before you receive this letter against Taylor, and a bill filed in Chancery to compel the payment of the monies due for the occupation of the tenement. Incapable of attending the prosecution of those suits I have taken the liberty to confide them to the attention of Mr. McCraw a practitioner in the courts where they must be prosecuted, of whose punctuality you may rest perfectly assured.
You have learnt I presume, the cruelly afflictive blow, which it has pleased Providence to direct against our distressed family. You Sir can judge what his afflicted children must feel at the loss of such a parent, since an early acquaintance gave you the power of knowing the benignant qualitys of his philanthropic character. Unless the feelings of a son deceive me a better man never descended to the grave The blow was to me utterly unexpected; joined to the disease which preys upon my constitution, it threatened for some time to make me jointly a tenant of the mournful mansion where his honored remains repose. I am now somewhat revived, but my physicians announce to me the necessity of trying the effects of a sea voyage and a milder climate. Italy and the South of Europe generally are recommended. I have considerably hesitated in my determination whether I should take this lengthy voyage, or restrict myself to a trip to Charleston, and from thence to some of the West India Islands, which latter course would be not incompatible with the arrangements which I had formed; previously to my being apprized of the necessity of making every pursuit subordinate to the effort to regain the blessing of health. To relinquish the station conferred on me by my country immediately that it has been bestowed, is to me a painful circumstance; but the victim of disease, with an infants weakness of body and a mind consequently incapable of exertion, It appears to me that I owe it to myself and to my friends to make other considerations yield to the propriety of attempting to remove the evils which deprive me of the pleasure of existence. My resolution has been fixed in this uncertainly as to the course I should pursue, by my brothers being ordered to join a vessel which is said to be destined for the Mediterranean. To have his company and the benefit of his attentions would considerably diminish the disagreements of such an excursion. If there is a probability that the Wasp the vessel to which he is attached will sail in the course of six or eight weeks, I should be highly gratified, if the rules of the Navy permit such an arrangement, to obtain of Captain Smith the commander of the Wasp, a passage to some port in Italy. Not having the happiness to be personally acquainted with this gentleman, I take the liberty of inclosing a letter addressed to the Secretary of the Navy on this subject, which I shall be indebted to you to deliver, in the event of the Squadrons being destined to sail within the time I have mentioned. The state of my health forbids a longer delay
On a former occasion where circumstances impossible to explain gave to my character an appearance of fickleness which I can not think is its proper attribute, you honored me with letters of introduction to your friends in Europe. Having once been offered this act of kindness which would command to me attentions, and opportunitys of improvement I could not otherwise aspire to, I flatter myself it will not now be witheld. Such an introduction may dispel somewhat the Gloom which hovers round the Invalid; and Should returning health open to me the prospect of future exertions to your auspices I may be indebted for acquirements which are not within the power of the obscure man to attain.
Here Sir perhaps I ought to stop. To another than yourself I should certainly be silent. Should the following observations be disagreeable you will attribute the freedom with which they are made to the flattering interest you have appeared to take in my welfare, and those kind attentions which induced me to beleive that I have been honored with your friendly regard. The excursion I make is extremely inconvenient in many respects. It forces me to resign a station I deem an honorable one & which my contracted fortune renders very desirable. & My profession also during my absence will be abandoned. The funds which I can command for the expedition are limited; and this circumstance may I fear force me to return to America before my health is reestablished. Weighing duly those considerations, were it possible to give a destination to my pursuits which would imploy me a few years in Europe in some public station, I should imbrace such an opportunity with real satisfaction. I know not whether there exists under the present arrangements of Government any situation to which I might reasonably aspire, in any of the European countries with which we hold connexion. I should greatly prefer to reside in France, though I should be content to occupy a position not inferior to what I at present hold in its relation in Society in England, or for a short period in Spain. My stay in Italy I would willingly make subserve such an arrangement, should it accord with your views to give it existence. In mentioning this subject I have felt considerably imbarassed; Were the communication generally known I am aware of the ungenerous use that would be made of it; but I trust that your acquaintance with my character and principles will induce you to appreciate justly the motives which actuate my conduct. Want of health compels me to visit Europe; and when there I should be happy to mingle in the Society to which public appointment generally introduces a stranger; I should be happy to return to my country not altogether incapable of advancing its prosperity, by an acquaintance with the systems adopted in the countries I visited. There is also another consideration which operates with me as an incentive to disclose my views to the patron of my earliest fortunes. My habits my feelings incline me to public life; and was it in my power to select, That department of public life which is connected with diplomacy would be my choice
To other honors the door is open. It is habitual to solicit a seat in the legislature. It is not deemed undignified to avow a preference for a situation in the Executive. But a candid exposition of sentiment to those who have the power of bestowing, appears to be the only mode of obtaining foreign appointment. Delicacy forbad me during my residence under your roof, to mention my wishes, though they then existed in equal force; perhaps I should still continue to seal my lips; but since then I have not been entirely unnoticed by my country & I have beleived that the disclosure of my objects would not be deemed improper. I will conclude Sir with remarking that I am ignorant whether any station exists or is likely to exist to which I could have pretension, that I have mentioned my views under the confidence that you will view with indulgence even what you may deem an error in the conduct of a person whose character has in some measure been formed by your friendly instructions, and with the hope that if the subject is unpleasant, it will be dismissed from remembrance.
Should it be the pleasure of Captain Smith to receive me on board the vessel he commands, I will attend at Washington or Hampton as may be most convenient. Stores for the voyage I presume can be procured conveniently at either place. If you Sir should have any communication to make to that part of Europe which I propose to visit it would afford me pleasure to take charge of any packet you might think proper to confide to my care. It is unnecessary to add that I should be highly gratified by any observations which you may impart to render my visit to Europe useful or agreable.
I pray you Sir to be assured of my warmest esteem and respect
DLC: Papers of Thomas Jefferson.