To Philip Schuyler1
Head Quarters New
Windsor [New York] Feby 18, 81
My Dear Sir.
Since I had the pleasure of writing you last an unexpected change has taken place in my situation. I am no longer a member of the General’s family. This information will surprise you
and you will be more surprised at the manner of my ceasing to be so—Two day ago The General was coming up stairs and I was going down He told me he wanted to speak to me on some business. I answered that I should wait upon him immediately. I went below and delivered Mr. Tilghman a letter for Mr. Blaine to be sent to Mr. Blaine conveying an order of a pressing and interesting nature. Without delaying a moment I was Returning to The General the in the way the Marquis stopped me, and we conversed together about half a minute on a matter of business. He can testify how impatient I was to get away, and that I left him in a manner which but for our intimacy would have been abrupt. if not rude Instead of finding the General as usual in his room, I met him at the head of the stairs, where accosting me in a very angry tone, “Col Hamilton (said he), you have kept me waiting at the head of the stairs these ten minutes. I must tell you Sir you treat me with disrespect.” I replied without petulancy, but with decision “I am not conscious of it Sir, but since you have thought it necessary to tell me so we must part” “Very well Sir ( answered he) if it be your choice” or something to this effect and we separated.
I sincerely believe my absence which gave so much umbrage did not last two minutes.
In less than an hour after, Tilghman2 came to me in the Generals name assuring me of his great confidence in my abilities, integrity usefulness
and the like and of his desire in a candid conversation to reconeile a difference which could not have happened but in a moment of passion. I requested Mr. Tilghman to tell him, that I had taken my resolution in a manner not to be revoked: that a conversation could answer no other purpose than to produce explanations mutually disagreeable, though I certainly would not refuse an interview if he desired it yet I should be happy he would excuse me from it to decline it—that I however did not wish to distress him or the public business, by quitting the family before he could derive other assistance by the return of some of the Gentlemen who were absent: And finally that the same principles which had kept me so long in his family would continue to influence my conduct towards him when out of it. that in the mean time our behaviour to each other might be the same as if nothing had happened.
He consented to decline the conversation and thanked me for my offer of continuing my aid,
till the arrival of some of the other in the manner I had mentioned.
I have given you so particular a detail of our difference from the desire I have to
preserve your approbation justify myself in your opinion.
Perhaps you may think I was
hasty in rejecting the overture made by the general to an accommodation. I assure you My Dr Sir it was not resentment that actuated me it was the deliberate result of maxims I had long formed for the government of my own conduct. I always
I always disliked the
relation of an Aide de Camp to his general as having in it a kind of personal dependance. I refused to serve in this capacity with two Major General’s at an early period of the war. Infected with the general enthusiasm of the times, an idea of the Generals character which experience soon taught me to be false , overcame my scruples and induced to accept his offer of entering invitation into his family.7 I believe you know the place I held in his confidence and councils of which will make it the more extraordinary to you to learn that for more than three years past I have felt no friendship for him and professed none. The truth is our own dispositions are the opposites of each other & the pride of my temper would not suffer me to profess what I did not feel. Indeed when advances of this kind ⟨have been made⟩8 to me by the General, they were rec⟨eived in a manner⟩ as showed at least I had no inclination ⟨to court them, and that⟩ I wished to stand rather upon a footing of m⟨ilitary confidence than⟩ of private attachment. You are too good a judge of human nature not to be sensible how this conduct in me must have operated on the self-love of a man to whom the whole world is offering incense. I give you this as a key to the rest With this key you will easily unlock the present mystery. At the end of the war I may say many things to you concerning which I shall impose upon myself ’till then an absolute silence.9
The General ⟨is a very honest⟩ man. His competitors ⟨have slender⟩
talents and less hone⟨sty . His popularity⟩ has often ⟨been essential to the safety of America, and is still of great importance to it. These considerations have influenced my past conduct respecting him, and will influence my future. I think it is necessary he should be supported.
His estimation in your mind, whatever may be its amounts, I am persuaded has been formed on⟩ principles which a circumstance like
of the present nature cannot materially affect; but if I thought it could diminish your friendship for him, I should almost forego the motives that urge me to attain my own justification to you. I hope wish what I have said to make no other impression than to satisfy you I have not been wrong. It is also said in confidence, for as a public knowlege of the breach would in many ways have ⟨an ill effect.⟩ I believe it will be ⟨the policy of both sides⟩ to conceal it and cover the ⟨separation with⟩ some plausible pretext. ⟨I am importuned by such friends as are privy to the affair, to listen to a reconciliation: but my resolution is unalterable.
As I cannot think of quitting the army during the war, I have a project of re-entering into the artillery, by taking Lieutenant-Colonel Forrest’s10 place, who is⟩ desirous of retiring on half pay. I have not however made up my mind upon this , as I should be obliged to come in the youngest Lt Col instead of the eldest, which I
should have been by natural succession had I remained in the corps; and to resume studies relative to the profession which, to avoid inferiority, must be laborious.
If a handsome command for the campaign in the infantry should offer itself, I shall ballance between this and the artillery. My situation ⟨in the latter⟩ would be more
substantial ⟨and permanent;⟩ but as I hope ⟨the war will not last long enough to make it progressive, this consideration has the less force. A command for the campaign would leave me the winter to prosecute studies relative to my future career in life. With⟩ respect to the former, I have been materially the worse for going into his family.11
I have written to you on this subject with all the freedom and confidence to which you have a right and with an assurance of the interest you take in
what concerns me.
Very sincerely & Affectionately I am Dr Sir Yr. most Obed
ADfS, Lloyd W. Smith Collection, Morristown National Historical Park, Morristown, New Jersey.
1. H scholars have used this letter as their major source in describing H’s break with Washington. Until recently, however, no manuscript of this document was known to exist. J. C. Hamilton printed only part of the letter (JCHW description begins John C. Hamilton, ed., The Works of Alexander Hamilton (New York, 1851). description ends , 1, 211–14). In printing a complete copy of this letter, Lodge wrote: “It [the letter] is given here in its entirety from a copy of the original, made by Mr. James A. Hamilton, and which I found among the papers of my grandfather, Mr. Henry Cabot” (HCLW description begins Henry Cabot Lodge, The Works of Alexander Hamilton (New York, 1904). description ends , IX, 232, note). Differences between the manuscript and the J. C. Hamilton and Lodge versions are indicated in the footnotes below. The numbers which H placed above the line indicate the order in which he wished to write the final version of this letter.
2. Lieutenant Colonel Tench Tilghman.
3. Lieutenant Colonel David Humphreys.
4. Lieutenant Colonel Robert Hanson Harrison.
7. In HCLW description begins Henry Cabot Lodge, The Works of Alexander Hamilton (New York, 1904). description ends this sentence is followed by the words: “It was not long before I discovered he was neither remarkable for delicacy nor good temper, which revived my former aversion to the station in which I was acting, and it has been increasing ever since.” Neither JCHW description begins John C. Hamilton, ed., The Works of Alexander Hamilton (New York, 1851). description ends nor the manuscript contain this sentence.
Both HCLW description begins Henry Cabot Lodge, The Works of Alexander Hamilton (New York, 1904). description ends and JCHW description begins John C. Hamilton, ed., The Works of Alexander Hamilton (New York, 1851). description ends , however, contain these sentences:
“It has been often with great difficulty that I have prevailed upon myself not to renounce it; but while, from motives of public utility, I was doing violence to my feelings, I was always determined, if there should ever happen a breach between us, never to consent to an accommodation. I was persuaded that when once that nice barrier, which marked the boundaries of what we owed to each other, should be thrown down, it might be propped again, but could never be restored.”
These sentences are not in the manuscript. HCLW description begins Henry Cabot Lodge, The Works of Alexander Hamilton (New York, 1904). description ends follows this with the following sentences:
“I resolved, whenever it should happen, not to be in the wrong. I was convinced the concessions the General might make would be dictated by his interest, and that his self-love would never forgive me for what it would regard as a humiliation.”
Both JCHW description begins John C. Hamilton, ed., The Works of Alexander Hamilton (New York, 1851). description ends and the manuscript omit these sentences.
9. The material beginning with the words “I believe you know” and ending with the words “an inviolable silence” are omitted in JCHW description begins John C. Hamilton, ed., The Works of Alexander Hamilton (New York, 1851). description ends .
10. Lieutenant Colonel Thomas Forrest.